Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Winding Down


It has been a pretty full-on year. Come to think of it, it has been a pretty full-on decade. Of course on the paper I am British now, but every morning I flick through the French press. I am probably better informed than when I was living in Paris. You can take the girl out of France, but not France out of the girl, right? We settled down in London, bought a house, renovated it, had a baby, struggled with the British educative system, set up a business, and so on, and so forth. Oh, and as you may know I write a blog too...


Here, on holidays, in Dubai, the enormity of what I have achieved is finally hitting me. I have come a long way, in a completely unexpected direction, and to top it up my journey is far from over. The thing is, when you do nothing, reality hits you in the face. And that's what is happening here. 
I am stunned -literally. So stunned I had to take a nap in the afternoon, which usually never happens.

Is it some sort of holiday blues? I don't know. I can't be the only one, right? What is going on?

Part of the problem is that I have to do something. Always. I don't know how to do nothing. Not possible. Actions speak louder than words, as I always say. So tell me, what can I do now, apart from relaxing? How did I become such an action junkie?

I keep thinking of my business, my book, my writing.

I can't let go. Damn it.

What should I do?



20 comments:

  1. Get drunk :-) Seriously, I think it's hard to switch off, especially when you have your own business. But if you don't relax once in a while, you might regret it when you go back home...

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  2. Don't ask me- I've been an action junkie since I was a toddler. If I ain't moving, I ain't growing.

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    1. Same here. I don't know how to do nothing.

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  3. Wow! You know, dear Muriel, I can actually spend hours or even days doing nothing. That doesn't mean I don't have the drive. I'm working on a screenplay now and it drives me, but I know when to stop the engine and chill.. trust me.. corny as it might sound... true meaning is found in the times you 'just are'... :)

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    1. If only I could do this...I need to try harder to just be.

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  4. It is hard for me to unwind on vacation too Muriel, no deadlines to keep and I lose my focus...takes me days to relax and just be able to sleep. The problem is, I finally do unwind, then it takes me a bit of time to wind back up when I get back to work. I've found that taking my paints and camera with me give me something else to focus on and obsess about...so I stay focused, but on something that is fun and uses a different part of my brain too. :)

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    1. I followed your advice and started writing a YA novella. It just never stops...

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  5. I don't have that problem. I don't always have to be doing something. I love sitting in my garden watching the trees move in the wind, read my Kindle, bask in the warm air, think thoughts. It's good to chill.

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    1. How do you do it? I can't. It's beyond me.

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  6. It can be hard to unwind, Muriel, especially when you're accustomed to being on overdrive. Maybe you can try to immerse yourself in the culture of your vacation spot. Learn about the area and take tours if possible. That way you are still feeding the need to be doing something, yet it is something that you don't have to do, which is nice.

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    1. Why is it so hard for me? You are right, I need to do something, it is the only way...

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  7. I agree with Suerae, focus on what is going on around you. Live in the moment and tell yourself you are exactly where you need to be in the moment.

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    1. I will. I love Arabic culture anyway, so it shouldn't be too difficult!

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  8. When one stops for a bit, on holiday for example, everything suddenly hits you. You are suddenly very aware of all the balls you've been keeping in the air for so long. All one can do is give your body and your brain time to recharge, take it easy, and slowly head back into it all when the holiday is over. But for now...enjoy Dubai!

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    1. Dubai is fantastic. I don't know why, it is just a place where I feel right at home.

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  9. Keep taking naps. As they say, sleep is important to success ;-)

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    1. Ah, sleep...what's not to like about sleep?

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